Sometimes I can’t tell if I was happier when I was naive about all of this. I’m smarter now, and my eyes are open but I can’t deny it makes me sad inside.
When I was told to stay strong because a man needs a woman to be his support system, I was really hoping I’d get the same in return.
Now I’m left alone thinking of reasons why all my progress this far isn’t worth it.
I can’t handle making ALL the decisions.
I can’t handle hearing “I don’t know” for every question.
I need help, it sucks that i want to throw out everything I’ve worked at this far out the door.
Over stress, and not knowing wtf to do next.
Seems like everything is coming to an end, and I’ve never been so terrified to be alone right now.
— Shel Silverstien
Daaaamn misty idk what it is, it could be the change of “BC”…
But I’m feeeeling extra down on myself.
I can give myself reasons but I keep coming across things that put me right back on my ass.
IM DEFITNETLY GOING BACK TO SOME SELF DESTRUCTIVE WAYS,
I hope this phase passes soon,
Because in going backward from all the progress I’ve done.
I hope all is well with you,
I love you lots&it was wonderful seeing you the other day.
I feel like I’m saying hella a lot…do I normally?
This is fun.
Also I’m happy.
And it’s because FUCK YOU!
For reals I always forget to tell myself…FUUUUCK YOU!
Fuckk all u niggas…except my niggas!
No new friends no no no.
P.s. how many drinks?
LOL TUMBLR THOUGH WASSSUP!
You just break my heart,each and every time you pop into my life. I’ve made the same mistake with you more times than with anyone else. What does that say about you? What does that say about me?
You’ve made me really appreciate everything.
I know the choices I’ve already made, have and will make things difficult.
But you’ve showed me a brand new way to love.